So on my arrival and after our initial discussion I was further surprise (2016 was my year of surprises) because the public service and its culture protected me from these new ways of conducting affairs and they always at the outset disturbed me but I am not always the one to show discomfort, I was up for a challenge. So my skills as a participant observer step in. Only if I knew it was a job & it was indoors I would have prepared differently. But because I was on my creative beat I brought gear that would challenged my creative juices. So ,of course I did not walk with a flash, etc. yes you could safely say that I was ill-prepared for the job as she wanted it.
To conclude she found my work too dark. But you must remember my limitations-in gear and otherwise , lack of enough fore knowledge and clarity of her request and of course operating from entirely different assumptions-I was creating large concepts with my images while she was interested in details.
This is clearly a conversion by me in camera and with my editing software not her creation or possibly how she would wish to see it-for she is into bliss ,creating a dream ,fantasy and offering luxury and happiness.
The IDEA to show this possibly unpopular view of an apparent blissful event came from my work experiences and my own experiences especially when I said to some of my friends and family that I intended to take the step. I was completely surprised to see and hear what mainly females who themselves were married had proffered as advice to stop me from doing it.
I was reminded that some people begin SEEING HELL from the honeymoon. I got suggestions from some ,never wanting to go that path again, or if they had the opportunity to turn back time it would not be the same pathway they would go.
I also thought of my experiences in my previous job where I read more than a 1000 stories and must have heard more of women severe beating by their husbands more than they got even at home and in school and worse than when they were children, some of these women are permanently scared both physically and mentally for life. Marriage had provided a safe haven for this kind of abuse to occur.
In the case of women the information is used as evidence for women to receive housing speedily from the State. In addition, my experience volunteering in the rape crisis society of the Trinidad & Tobago made me understand the gravity and volume of failed marriages.
Let us now look at the image it is RECEPTION HALL and it look like you are really ENTERING THE GATES OF HELL. And HELLISH BEHAVIORS CAN OCCUR after the wedding. Some say when that RING is on finger the IMAGE of the RELATIONSIP CHANGES.
To understand the portrayal 2 ways of viewing it, are suggested:-1)take it from the perspective of prior knowledge from experiences of others and recent information that made you have doubts even though you just completed the church ceremony and the outdoor shoot of smiles and family bonding, 2)all that aforementioned process was done you entered with your partner and the behavior and expressions of the crowd-your partners group gave you a culture shock or some cognitive dissonance, confusion and doubt.