Pointing my Way

November 21, 2017  •  Leave a Comment

d Pointing my WayPointing my WayBy now you may understand why I Can't see myself as a photographer. And is not because of a short sighted person who possibly is a mentor to some. Photography ,in a short space of time has positioned me to understand much of me and the people around me and now after living on this planet for the 3 score, I can safely say. YES I AM SEEING THE LIGHT BETTER NOW. I REALLY DIDN'T GLASSES, JUST PHOTOGRAPHY.
Why this image? Because it reminds me of my early years in the rural district of Trinidad,when we depended on a torch light to illuminate the darkness of the nigh when walking the streets. Those days we depended on the battery devices to operate most things, radio, etc. Electricity was a luxury and only for some city dwellers.
But the greater good of this depiction is this. I consider this as another way viewing influencers,your mentors, your teachers, your consultants.
In my book ,they are the ones who hold the torchlight to show you the way out of or through the darkness. They don't hold your hand nor walk in front of you.- just show and or point.
My influencers have been multifaceted and multifarious. You might be amazed who some of them are. Most of the Calypsonians(popular and not so popular) while growing up influenced me with their renditions and of course our first Prime Minister. i could remember his comment about braying.
This leads to add that we seldom give words the importance they deserve. And I being someone from this country knows how skillful and colorful a Trinidadian may be with words. And I believe it is again the diverse influences of our cultural environment. We are almost everybody who is significant and we can be everybody that is significant. You can't be a better Jamaican than a Trinidadian, You can't be a better British, than a Trinidadian (and I am sure you could give me examples of this one) and Trinidadian can just go to Tobago , and when he returned you may want to believe he was in New York all his life.
That's the power of the word and its influences.
And those people who run SEARCH ENGINES on the web knows this.
You ever wonder why Google continue to tell you make sure you have KEYWORDS. Yes,KEYWORDS are INFLUENCERS. They can help influence people to get to your site. Google knows also that there are good and bad influences.They called the bad ones NEGATIVE KEYWORDS.
Google knows from experiences in social life that even negative influences ,bad people and bad things can still help you by telling no! stay away from him/her or that place.
And that is what that photographer did for me. He showed that if he is an important person in that organization that was not the place for me.
So he is an influencer -a negative one.
Sorry though my views run contrary to the song "One bad apple don't spoil the whole bunch".
Maybe at the time fail to consider the type of worms I constantly have to deal with.

The image you are viewing is a morning time at Rockhouse, Negril, Jamaica.

The importance of the image is the manner in which the sunlight miraculously lit my jogging path.

So, a concept piece was developed associating the instrument(the torchlight) that showed me the way when My father and brothers walked the streets of our village at night. Electricity had not reached our village at the time.

By now you may understand why I Can't see myself as a photographer.

And is not because of a short sighted person who possibly is a mentor to some.

 I was an individual in front of him admitting my weakness like the other person a lady, and who admitted the same to him and he was very kind and helpful to her.  I can say her ethnic group because I visited both her and the so called  mentor's site. But I prefer to let that rest here.

His only words to me -maybe non-words because he did it anonymously.

Yes ,the identity was deduced because he was the person to whom the request was made(by name, mind you) and he did not seem to respond.  

The remarks attributed to him and was posted on my site were:-terrible website(but based on his comments, in a matter of seconds, he navigated the whole site (the alert came right after I made the request ;a  sign in facility was  something used,then)- so I might be able to say  that the site was responsive), offensive prices, awful compositions, sell your cameras and go take some courses, and get out his organization(my emphasis) PPA were all part of his disparaging comments(the adjective, disparaging, was used by a staff member of my web host at the time).

So you can call this reasonable conjecture and you should  also know that with ZENFOLIO there are  two tracking facilities.

But I want to suggest, now, someone who I still consider a great TORCHLIGHT.

Although I have lost touch with her she still standout as someone who still light my way.

She is an INTELLECTUAL PAR EXCELLANCE.

She achieved not one but two ISLAND WIDE SCHOLARSHIPS in her time at secondary schooling.

She was my Lecturer at a course called Caribbean Social Structure.

I  think I need to name her because of her importance to anyone doing her courses and to Caribbean people.

I went to our University -UWI ,St Augustine not just to get a better paying job. But because of my interest in what you all call scholarship.

I was just interested in educating myself. And I saw the LIBRARY of the university as a comfort zone - taking the offensive quirks of some clowns who believed that they were so bright and did not need to see much books, yet ,stayed at the institution longer than the duration prescribed to their stay there.

Susan Craig saw this in me and attempted to guide me from overdoing this. I  can say this because in her workshops-her method of teaching i.e. not talking down to you like most  did at the time. She used to give me  the reason why certain books were not listed as recommended reading on her list when I spoke of them at these workshops.

But she could be brutal in her private consultations with her students(may be because of the part of our country she was from).

I was not saved from this. But, if you can understand a little of me you would know that an equal retort would occur and that strained the lecturer-student relationship for the remainder of the course.

But it did not hinder me from requesting a recommendation from her after I completed my degree. I believed at the time that it would not be for what people used recommendations for ,but for my edification of myself.

You see, no matter our strained relationship I  believed she would give a comprehensive assessment of me that I can use for the rest of my career. That was my own evaluation  of her and I remembered, while growing up my brilliant brother was always very frank and honest with me when our relationship was strained. 

Ms.Craig's statement  to me was basically this:-

YOU EXPOSE YOURSELF TO TOO MUCH INFORMATION.

THIS WOULD NOT HELP YOU, ONLY OVERWHLEM YOU;

  BUT,SURELY IT WOULD CONFUSE YOU AND WASTE YOUR TIME .

Of course it was put in more colorful and proper language of her stature and one, if my memory served me correctly, who attended the University of Cambridge. But I don't think I was off in representing the intent of her advice.

I could say, now, that I understand it completely.

 It boils down to the circumstances of your upbringing.

I was always very serious about all that I did even when they were done just for fun and people can make you unsure of yourself wittingly and unwittingly.

I always believed that I must expose myself always to more because I never felt that I was good enough with what I knew.

This is a good and or bad thing if it's overdone.

But now I realized that most times all you need to know are the basics for most things and common sense, your abilities and your instincts assist you with the rest .

Sometimes I still REVERT TO THE BEHAVIOR.

So I am trying my best to control this weakness by adding GREATER FILTERING.

So please don't feel slighted if you saw me before as a paid or non-paying support.

I am preserving me-my finances, my psychosocial health, and my time.

No offence meant ,just admitting good selfishness.

In a short space of time Photography has positioned me to understand much of me and the people around me and now after living on this planet for the 3 score, I can safely say. YES I AM SEEING THE LIGHT BETTER NOW. I REALLY DIDN'T GLASSES, JUST PHOTOGRAPHY.

That is a joke, of course.

But the greater good of this depiction is this. I consider this as another way of viewing influencers,your mentors, your teachers, your consultants.
In my book ,they are the ones who hold the torchlight to show you the way out of or through the darkness. They don't hold your hand nor walk in front of you.- just show and or point.

That's the power of the word and its influences.
And those people who run SEARCH ENGINES on the web know this.
You ever wonder why Google continue to tell you make sure you have KEYWORDS. Yes,KEYWORDS are INFLUENCERS. They can help influence people to get to your site. Google knows also that there are good and bad influences.They called the bad ones NEGATIVE KEYWORDS
And that is what that photographer did for me. He showed me that if he is an important person in that organization it was not the place for me.
So he is an influencer -a negative one.
Sorry though my views run contrary to the song "One bad apple don't spoil the whole bunch".
Maybe the writer and artists of the song fail to consider what  worms can do.

p.s. I believe I should add two more items to this:

I am new to this i.e. blogging. But I see it somewhat like a conversation. I usually do this impulsively and open ended.

Why? that's the way I feel to do it because it comes naturally and when its open-ended I have the opportunity for a rebuttal.

Take for instance this one.

I want to add why the idea of a torchlight is a great analogy.

If the battery is low- not enough light,

if it's medium you can't see to far ahead .

But if it's on full power you can see clearly and you can then decide if it is worthwhile continuing on that path.

I hope my explanation on the two items is satisfactory.

 


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